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“to be with each other not as a quick stolen pleasure, nor as a wild treat but like sunlight, day after day in the regular course of our lives.” - audre lorde
kaoru & kojiro do the 36 questions.
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trigger switch by thisandthisandthis
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
07 Jan 2026
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“it was totally consensual. i said ‘yes’ to everything we did.”
ilya considers this, then gently grips shane’s hands in his own. “moya lyubov,” he begins, “is true you said ‘yes.’ but this does not mean it has to be good memory.”
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something small triggers shane’s memories of having sex with rose. the memory expands. untethers him. locks him underwater.
ilya is there to help coax him to the surface.
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within, without by thisandthisandthis
Fandoms: Star Trek: The Original Series, Star Trek
30 Dec 2024
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janice rand reflects on & recovers from the events of “the enemy within.”
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arei giggled. “i didn’t think you could look any more flustered than you did before. wow, that’s so embarrassing for you.”
“shut up!” j muttered through gritted teeth, acutely aware of the rush that swept through her body at the other girl’s words, feverish & shameful & alive.
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even over i love you by thisandthisandthis
Fandoms: Star Trek: Strange New Worlds (TV), Star Trek
18 Aug 2024
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m’benga reflects on hemmer’s death. grieves, bleeds, puts himself back together.
nothing hurts like the almost.
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Irina is a fascinating, tragic figure. She occupies more space than she should in Yuna’s mind, but she occupies more space than she should in all of their lives: the giant black hole at the center of their family.
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11 May 2026
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heaven and hell were words to me by LunarMoonstone
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 May 2026
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“I, uh, came to ask for a ride."
Luca glanced sideways at Boodram, who was frozen with one arm in his jacket. It truly would have been hilarious, the way they all watched this scene unfold like a car crash, if it didn’t also feel like one.
They shared a confused glance, turning back when Rozanov’s incredulous “A ride?” rang through the locker room.
“Yeah, I, uh, figured I could use one since I just…quit the Metros,” Hollander said slowly, heaving an exhausted sigh afterwards.
In which Shane Hollander overhears his teammates talking about him before a game and ends up in the Centaurs' locker room, asking Ilya Rozanov for a ride.
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- Part 3 of Hurt/Comfort One Shots
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06 May 2026
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lover, come over by LArtemys
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Mar 2026
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She's got her mouth open, too, ready to snap at him to leave, because Shane does not need this right now. He can come back, if he has to, when her son's less fucking vulnerable, high on painkillers and reeling from mood-swings; not that she thinks he will, which, good. Really, she's just about to, when Shane's voice sounds.
"Ilyaaaaa!" he lets out delightedly.
For another long moment, nobody moves.
Rozanov's face has contorted. His brows are furrowed and he's looking only at Shane. Is he confused? Yuna's pretty damn confused. Because–
"Il-yaaaa!" Shane repeats, loud and sounding – ecstatic, really. Absolutely ecstatic.
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- Part 1 of the lover verse
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27 Apr 2026
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“Oh God,” Shane whines, tugging on the drawstrings of his hoodie. “I can’t find my phone. I don’t know how I’ll get home.”
“Hollander,” Rozanov scoffs incredulously. “You are on phone call with me. Phone is in your hand.” A sigh crackles through the receiver. “Where are you? I will come get you.”
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21 Mar 2026
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“What is grailed dot com?” Shane reads out loud from the computer screen.
“How have you spent almost fifty grand on it in the last year?”
Ilya doesn’t reply.
“Is it a-” it’s like Ilya can hear the gears turning in Shane’s head, “Is it a porn website?”
Ilya laughs lightly, endeared by Shane's choice of words, “As if you would know.”
“Fuck you, I’ve watched porn.”
Ilya turns to face him, a look of pleased incredulity painted on his features. He watches as Shane processes what he just said and then shakes his head as if to rid himself of the trance. Shane both hates and loves these moments when Ilya gets him to say ludicrous things in his own defense. As if he even needs to defend himself.
Shane and Ilya talk about personal finance, porn and they are in love.
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27 Feb 2026