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In an unhealthy pursuit of answers about his missing years in Vergesson, Caleb asks Essek to do something terrible. Essek, well practiced at doing terrible things, agrees.
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31 Jul 2026
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“You accused me of treating this like a game. I am sorry if I’ve led you to believe that it is only a game—though I won't deny that part of it is.” Bren gives a disarming smile. “My life is either games or murder, after all.”
“Or mail fraud,” Thelyss says dryly, not even a little disarmed.
“The mail fraud is a sort of game as well.”
A sigh. “Is this your way of telling me that you intend to continue playing?”
Bren smiles again, sharper. “If you would let me.”(In which Bren Aldric Ermendrud decides to seduce the Shadowhand and finds that the best way to convince someone to be vulnerable with you is to be vulnerable in turn.)
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- Part 1 of aBiA
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14 Jun 2026
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Alyson is finally away from Delos Crossing and living in Juneau with Michael and Tyler. Seemingly away from all the troubles of her old life. But recovery is never linear and your 20s as a rule, are messy.
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13 Jun 2026
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lovely alyson cantered and angsty
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Catbug investigates strange goings-on inside the Bravest Warriors' invisible hideout.
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01 Apr 2026
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She cares about them both, she’s realizing. Her mouth is sour with the learned dread of it. The world is not kind to those she loves. And even these days, when Trent’s voice in her head is her conscience and not the man himself, to love is a dangerous thing.
(Astrid and Eadwulf meet the Shadowhand. Later, they meet Essek)
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20 Mar 2026
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i will wash your hair at night (and dry it off with care) by a_forest
Fandoms: Loki (TV 2021)
05 Jan 2024
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„This is real, and you deserve this. You deserve peace, and you deserve friends and someone who cares for you.“
Loki nods absentmindedly, lips still pressed to Mobius' hand.
„You deserve happiness. And love. You deserve everything, Loki.“
„And you? Do I deserve you?“, Loki asks very quietly.
or: Loki and Mobius deal with the lasting pain from Loki's time slipping
or: author has issues!
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08 Sep 2025
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The fluffy painkiller by thesweetpianowritingdownmylife
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
20 Nov 2019
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Frumpkin likes this new friend of Caleb's, so he goes to his house to ask for cuddles.
(Or: Essek has chronic pain that lessens with Frumpkin's purrs. Cue attempts to get closer to the cat, and accidentally to his wizard)
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29 Jul 2025
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you know that time is all we're made of by chronocrystal
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
05 Jan 2023
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“Well then, I shall ask you a question,” said Essek, “Do you believe I should participate in conversation more than I do?”
Caleb raised his head in alarm. Did his friend think he was being criticised? Did Essek interpret Caleb’s judgement of his own silence as reflected upon him? Caleb raised his hands plaintively, “No, not at all. In fact, I think I’d be a little taken aback if you did. Please understand, it is not silence itself that I dislike and I certainly do not condemn yours, only my...lack of ability.”
“Why should you hold yourself to a standard you do not hold others to?"
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:::5 times Essek saw Caleb's unmasked self (and loved him all the same) and 1 time Caleb saw Essek's (and loved him the way he deserved).
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27 Jul 2025
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beautiful autism ace spec rep <3
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He wades in it now, eyes still open, fixed on the speckled ceiling, begging himself not to crave bomb blasts and artillery fire in his childhood bedroom. Although…there might be something beautiful about it all, Johnny supposes, those noises in the thick. The gasps in between discharge that say: I’m here, I’m a part of this song too.
After a near-fatal injury, John MacTavish finds himself back in his hometown in Scotland. Fresh off an untimely discharge, he's forced to cope with disability, his dysfunctional family, and the lingering knowledge that there are some things he's just not ready to leave behind...
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- Part 1 of silver and gold
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06 Jul 2025
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After an accident nearly costing them their lives Ghost and Soap had to leave the military behind. They parted without a word of goodbye and now three years later John is finally ready to face Simon again.
"After all John was the reason they were both here now, retired, cut off from everything they had known. And the guilt was gnawing at him, eating away everything he had once been. Every jab of pain in his leg was a reminder of his shame, every panic attack his rightful price to pay. Because it had been his fault. And Simon had left him for it."
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29 Jun 2025
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perfect texting, the golden standard
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Caduceus awakes to a splitting headache and all of his friends around him in a dark cavern, unconscious and bleeding out. In a desperate attempt to get everyone to safety, he neglects his own injuries. For once, his friends won't let him get away with it.
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09 Jun 2025
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After the incident leaves Gavin disabled and cut off from his friends, Gavin grows to rely on the help of his newly returned imaginary friend. But as he grows closer with his new partner once he returns to his job, it seems that Gavin’s friend isn’t so keen on letting Gavin go.
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25 May 2025
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Being gay and mentally ill at Kim's place by patrocleanMarcescence
Fandom Disco Elysium (Video Game)
22 Mar 2024
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15 May 2025
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One working RK900 model is recovered from Cyberlife after the android revolution, only he's... not what anyone was expecting. Battered and broken, apparently a result of Cyberlife's 'quality assurance' testing, the DPD has to figure out what to do with him.
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02 May 2025
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There was a rumor that Dutch van der Linde sold his soul at a crossroad in exchange for the shapechanging beasts that followed at his beck and call. Frankly, Arthur didn’t buy it. He followed Dutch and Hosea because they fed him. Some deal with a devil had nothing to do with it.
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01 Apr 2025
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Call of Duty but mix it with Detroit Become Human.
Simon “Ghost” Riley is an android.
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17 Apr 2024
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Ghost was aware of the effect Soap had on him. Even though Ghost had buried Simon 12 feet deep, Soap dug down anyway. Inch by inch, every interaction, every smile, had chipped away at Ghost’s resolve. It was only a matter of time until he laid bare, not as a Ghost, but as Simon. He just really didn’t think it would happen like that.
Or, Ghost is left to deal with the emotional turmoil from Shepard's latest betrayal. When unwanted memories rear their head and affect his work, Ghost tries desperately to get them to stop. Will he be able to keep it together before everything falls apart?
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14 Aug 2023
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Rodolfo was three years old the first time he met Alejandro — the first time the boy who would one day become one of his most important people bit him. He doesn’t remember it himself, only knows the story because his mamá would talk about it for years afterward. He’d been crying that day, inconsolable over something no one could pinpoint. Alejandro had been five, had still lived several houses down from his family in Las Almas back then.
“He came right through the window,” mamá would say, eyes misty from memory and a small smile on her face. “Not a word he said to anyone. He just went right to you, mijo, and bit your neck. I’ve never heard a sound like that come from a person, let alone a child. Like a rumbling croon. You calmed down so quickly, like you’d been waiting for it. For him.”
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- Part 8 of COD Shifter AU
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27 Jul 2023
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Sergeant John "Soap" MacTavish is declared K.I.A during a failed recon mission in 2017. His commanding officer, Captain John Price, takes the loss personally but has no other choice then to move on. He creates Task Force 141, keeps the bad guys scared of the dark, and hunts Makarov relentlessly - the man who killed his sergeant all those years ago.
Five years later, Price fights an assassin with a familiar face.
Spectre-07 doesn’t remember anything. Maybe he had once, but years of conditioning have stripped his mind bare, save for the instinct to kill. It's all he knows, all he craves; the blood of his target between his fingers, at the end of his scope or along the blade of his knives. He's a cold-blooded, empty headed machine, and he doesn't hesitate.
Until he does.
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- Part 1 of nothing but my aching soul
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- 84,259
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- 17/17
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19 May 2023
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pine, sea salt, and the taste of cherry cordial by ghcst
Fandoms: Call of Duty (Video Games)
02 May 2023
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At 28 years-old, Soap has already lived a decent amount of his life.
Don't get him wrong—he's certainly grateful for what opportunities he's had, but as he settles in Os Kervo to work for a blacksmith by the name of Price, he finds things start to get a bit boring, and there is, at some point, something left to be desired.
Then a Fjerdan with bicoloured eyes and a stupidly handsome face walks into Price's shop one day, and Soap thinks he's discovered, for the very first time in his twenty-eight years of life, what exactly love is.
It's a very welcome change in his life. The only problem is that Soap is Grisha, and he's not certain if he could ever break that to Simon.
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16 May 2023