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    Shane: Is this Ilya Rozanov?
    Unknown number: no
    Shane: Oh, but the dog collar had this number.
    Unknown Number: What? What dog collar? What are you talking about?
    Shane: I'm Shane Hollander.
    Shane: I have your dog.
    Unknown Number: Is this ransom threat?
    Unknown Number: Did you kidnap my dog?

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    13 Aug 2026

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    “You are very angry at me. That is okay.” He looked up and met Shane’s eyes. “Tell me. I can take it; I will not get angry. But please, say it all, so I know, and so you do not keep carrying it. I do not want it to rot in here,” he said, jabbing a finger at his chest.

    Ilya took another deep breath, “Please. I cannot fix it if I do not know. Is it because I was too needy?”

    “No, it fucking wasn’t, Ilya!” Shane shouted, eyes shining. “There is quite literally nowhere else that I would rather be. I have moved heaven and earth to have you in my life. You make me. Do you understand that? Loving you makes me who I am. It is a privilege to be here when you are having a hard time. But oh my fucking god, I am so tired of you treating me like absolute dog shit when you get sad. It has to fucking stop."

     

    Ilya Rozanov is being a vicious asshole, and he won't let himself think about why. But after a fight with Yuna and Shane, he's forced to confront what's actually below the surface. Shane Hollander shows up to take good care of his sad lover.

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    12 Aug 2026

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    "Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?"

    "I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.

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    12 Aug 2026

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    Title: a pox on all your houses
    Author: apocryphal
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    "Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?"

    "I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.

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    364 days since the death of Ilya Rozanov, Shane Hollander has done little to pick up the pieces of his life. Feeling stuck and hopeless, he tries in the only way he knows how to reunite with Ilya. He closes his eyes at 12:00 AM on the one-year anniversary of the accident, hoping that one way or another, he won't have to face another day alone. He wakes up in his Montreal apartment in 2016, grappling with a realized prayer: a redo.

    Deciding to do things differently a second time around, Shane quickly discovers that a past he has already lived is surprisingly difficult to predict. Every choice he makes sends out unintended ripples, and no one is harder to read than Ilya himself, leaving Shane to question if his own rewritten steps are altering the man he died for.

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    12 Aug 2026

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    Title: I hope that I pass and I get reborn
    Author: shovels21
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    364 days since the death of Ilya Rozanov, Shane Hollander has done little to pick up the pieces of his life. Feeling stuck and hopeless, he tries in the only way he knows how to reunite with Ilya. He closes his eyes at 12:00 AM on the one-year anniversary of the accident, hoping that one way or another, he won't have to face another day alone. He wakes up in his Montreal apartment in 2016, grappling with a realized prayer: a redo.

    Deciding to do things differently a second time around, Shane quickly discovers that a past he has already lived is surprisingly difficult to predict. Every choice he makes sends out unintended ripples, and no one is harder to read than Ilya himself, leaving Shane to question if his own rewritten steps are altering the man he died for.

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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Title: a year safe in your heart
    Author: Anonymous
    Series: Part 1 of anonymous cottage collection
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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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