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    The Cost of Loving You by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    09 Aug 2026

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    The fight on Boxing Day 2020 end with Ilya asking Shane for a break and Shane walking out the door. Ilya never thought that will be the last time he saw Shane, for a very long time. During this time, everyone Shane loved struggle to cope with the grief, some better than others. Ilya stays in Ottawa and watches over Yuna and David Hollander, grieving their only son, and each in their own, do not survive it. Hayden searches for answers in the wreckage of his best friend's disappearance, turning over events in memory, unable to shake the feeling Shane told him something before he vanished.
    When Shane finally reappears, enduring the unthinkable, broken and barely recognizable, what comes next is harder than anyone anticipated.

    Or: AU after the Boxing Day fight in The Long Game. It's a story of grief, found family, a love that withstands hardship and passage of time, and the most unlikely friendship. Recovery is slow and costly and nonlinear, but that's what makes the happy ending hard won. Major Character Death warning are not for Shane or Ilya.

    Complete, sequel updating.

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    31 Jul 2026

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    What We Come Back To by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    09 Aug 2026

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    Five years into their marriage, Shane and Ilya’s love finally fractures under the weight of Ilya’s worsening depression. After a night apart, Ilya returns only to ask for a divorce, leaving Shane blindsided and devastated. As Shane struggles to understand what went wrong, Ilya convinces himself that walking away is the only way to protect the man he loves even if it destroys them both. While separated Ilya and Svetlana find themselves in a difficult situation leaving Shane heartbroken by the news.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    one day i'll watch as you're leaving (and life will lose all its meaning) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    24 Mar 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    infiltrators by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    06 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander was traded to the Ottawa Centaurs without ever being outed. His relationship with Ilya Rozanov is still a secret to most people.
    Everything was going just fine, until they both get added to the Centaurs WAGs group chat.

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    02 Apr 2026

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    The Interview by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    30 Mar 2026

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    Several years into Rozanov’s career, ESPN hires a reporter fluent in Russian.

    Suddenly able to answer questions fluently and with a wide vocabulary, Rozanov’s interviews go viral. Hockey fans around the world get a new look at what they thought about Boston’s #81. This changes not only his public persona, but his whole life.

    Inspired by the look on NBA star Nikola Jokić’s face when he was asked a question in his native Serbian and my own struggles learning a new language.

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    02 Apr 2026