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Shoulders: always tense
Mind: a never-ending, buzzing mess
I'm sick and tired of this mess
Am I truly of any less value to be seen as anything less than a human with emotions, heart and flesh?
Always giving but nearly never receiving
My past? Burn it, move on and stop grieving
There are times I am truly grateful and happy, yet there are times I want to be left alone, cry and destroy everything I see
Even though I want to do it all, I tell myself to not lose control and just let it be
You can see me
But can you truly see the real me?
I'm broken and lost
Yet I don't want you to feel lost as well
I put on a strong face to aid you
For you I could pretend I was strong when in truth I was weak
For you I could pretend I was happy when in truth I'm long gone and broken
I've sadly stopped living for my own sake and started to live for my loved ones instead
It's a bit funny how I'm a logical person, yet at the same time I move in the dark blindly by myself
I may not live for my own sake for now, but I'll be ok living for my loved ones instead and aid them whenever I can while working on myself
Untill I break free and remove the chains of self-loathing and hate, I'll keep on aiding my loved ones instead
However, I promise that I'll fight and break free from these chains until my very last breath
But can you promise me that you'll also do your best if you feel like you're in the same place as me?
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