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They say that time heals all wounds but I don't think so
My body is a canvas of invisible scars
My heart shattered and got torn to shreds
My mind is my worst enemy haunting me by reminders of my traumas
I was drowning in a pitch black Sea that is my mind
Then, you, Bangtan and your music came along, it was as if someone had reached out and saved me from my withering mind
The shattered and torn pieces of my heart were picked up and assembled by your sincerity, although still scarred, but at least made into one piece again
The invisible wounds on my body and soul were stitched together by your genuine and healing music to easen my unnoticeable pain
Your soothing voice whiped my unseen tears that had been running for years
Your very heart and soul, which is evident in every song that you create, soothes my troubled and dark mind, erasing all of my worries and stress
Your music and voice is one of the reasons as to why I'm still fighting and not giving in to my anguish
I hold my head high and try to keep moving forward, your words echo in my mind:
"Dream, I will be there for your creation until the end of your life
Dream, wherever you might be, it will be lenient
Dream, you will fully bloom after all the hardships
Dream, though your beginnings may be humble, may the end be prosperous"
These are some of the words I ever so desperately cling to, because I don't want to give in to my horrible and traumatic past
I'm scared that they'll judge me for experiencing something I could not understand as a child, only realizing what had happened as I grew older
Yet, your music and voice ease my pain and self-hate that I'm still struggling with from time to time
Your comforting and sincere words stitched my broken heart and soul, making it look like a scarred heart instead of shattered glass on concrete
Your presence in your music is enough to calm me down enough to make me think straight and gives me strength, which is no easy feat
All in all, words can not describe how much your healing music and soothing voice has helped me through all this pain
I'm grateful for you all and all that you have done
I wish I could have deep conversations about anything and everything with you, not as Suga from BTS but as Min Yoongi
I wish I could meet you and tell you how much you and Bangtan have helped me in my struggling moments and getting me through
I feel so connected to you all through your music, though I find myself connecting slightly more to you, Min Yoongi
Thank you for being a big portion in my healing process and giving me strength to not give up on myself
I never know if I'll ever get the chance to tell you all this in person but I hope that this will make its way to you like how your music and voice reached me in the darkest corners of my mind
Thank you so much for creating such healing and comforting music that reaches the hearts of everyone whose struggling with something in their lives
Thank you for following your passion even though you felt like the entire world was against you
Thank you so much for everything you do, Min Yoongi
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