saysays



Recent bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    "So what?" Shane huffs. "I start dating some random guy and bring him to my ex's wedding? That's so weird."

    "Or you find perfect, fake boyfriend who will act like total asshole to Matt."

    Shane snorts. But then he stops laughing.

    It's not… the worst idea. It's kind of a bad one. And chances are Matt is happily involved with whoever this Ian guy is, so he won't even care. Shane would have to find a fake boyfriend that's either so unworldly perfect, everyone in the room will be jealous; or someone who has a special talent for pissing people off.

    Shane sits up, his eyes finding Ilya's.

    "What if I bring you?"

    - or, Shane needs a date for his ex's wedding, and who better to bring than his best friend, Ilya? (You know, the one who is secretly in love with Shane.)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    22,798
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    190
    Kudos:
    2,178
    Bookmarks:
    528
    Hits:
    30,760

    11 Aug 2026

  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya is a photographer with a reputation. Shane is the golden boy on every magazine cover, and he's taken. They keep running into each other at shoots and after-parties, and it turns into a hot-mess situationship that they both think it’s casual, until it wasn't.

    Told through flashbacks and songs that got tangled up in all of it, this is the story of two people finding their way back to each other, and back to themselves.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    44,495
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    519
    Kudos:
    2,208
    Bookmarks:
    882
    Hits:
    49,232

    28 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    June 2010. Ilya Rozanov is delayed after the CCM shoot. By the time he gets to the locker room, Shane Hollander is out of the showers and Ilya’s entire plan is ruined.
    Only not quite fully ruined. Hollander invites him to dinner with his parents as a thank you for arranging the shoot and Ilya, in a burst of insanity, agrees. He hits it off with Yuna and David. They all exchange numbers. He and Hollander become friends.
    At no point does Ilya stop wanting more from him.

    June 2016. Ilya Rozanov is a superstar. A Cup winner. An MVP. Women want him, men want to be him. He’s fucking miserable.
    He’s in love with his best friend. He can’t deny it anymore. Only now Shane is dating a movie star and happier than Ilya’s ever seen him. Ilya can’t ruin that for him, can’t ruin their friendship by asking for what he knows Shane can’t give. No matter how much it kills him.

    A charity event in San Francisco. A catastrophic computer failure. A fateful decision to drive, not fly. Two days in a car, just the two of them. Alone. Together.
    Ilya’s sick with excitement and with dread, because how can he keep his secrets with Shane so close for so long?

    What he doesn’t know is that Shane has secrets too.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    33,977
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    1,246
    Kudos:
    11,179
    Bookmarks:
    3,430
    Hits:
    136,600

    14 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    In 2006, the Hollander family billeted a player to the Ottawa 67s - Ilya Rozanov, a 15 year old Russian Bostonian with a hockey talent to rival Shane's.
    Years later, they’d once again share a team, and a home: Boston College.

    “Why did you choose to come here? It’s not like you couldn’t have gone anywhere else.”
    Shane remembered his surprise at Ilya’s commitment. The calm of Boston College didn’t exactly fit Ilya’s predisposition.
    Ilya looked thoughtful for a second, underneath the tumult on his face. “Other than the obvious? I don’t know. I think I just felt like this place was where I was meant to go.”
    Shane understood that. After all, he’d felt the same way.
    Ilya gently nudged him with his elbow. "Now you. Why are you here, Canadian boy?”
    The corner of Shane’s lip raised, and he shrugged. “I wanted to be more than hockey. At least, for a little while longer.”
    Ilya’s eyes locked on him, and a small smile reset the lines of Ilya’s face. “You couldn’t have done that in Canada?”
    Shane shrugged again. “Sure, but Canada didn’t have you.”
    Ilya looked down at the ground, and didn’t look back up as he spoke.
    “The NHL didn’t have you.”

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    369,438
    Chapters:
    41/41
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    575
    Kudos:
    1,288
    Bookmarks:
    731
    Hits:
    75,460

    05 Jul 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

    OR
    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    112,340
    Chapters:
    22/22
    Comments:
    4,130
    Kudos:
    21,763
    Bookmarks:
    8,508
    Hits:
    692,033

    16 Jun 2026