13 Works by quicksilvermalec

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    “I thought we were gonna be together,” he whispers. It’s barely audible, but he knows both of his friends heard him. They exchange a look that Joel can’t read, and it’s just another way that Joel’s locked out of their love. He shakes his head, trying to choke back the tears. “You said you loved me, and I thought– but we’re not. You love him. You want him. And he wants you.” Joel releases a shaky breath. “And I want you both and I can’t have you.”

    Jimmy’s hand rests on Joel’s other wrist. “You can have us.”

    Joel looks between them, his jaw clenched to keep his lip from trembling. “Shouldn’t you be asking him?” he demands, jerking his chin toward Tango. Jimmy chuckles softly.

    “Don’t have to. He wants you.” Jimmy squeezes Joel’s hand. “And I do, too.”

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    Six months after the events of Klondike, Joel's trying to move on. Jimmy and Tango are so sweet and so understanding, trying to help him fix his relationship to sex. It's just that, well... he might be too broken to be repaired.

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    Disaster strikes! On opposite sides of Lemongrass City, two guys wake up with no memory of who they are, victims of a tragic accident that leveled a building. As they try to find their way back to themselves, everything seems to be conspiring against them. Meanwhile, uneasy alliances are formed as five powerful individuals try desperately to recover their friends....

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    Tango’s drinking coffee, sitting in a plush chair that’s not facing the table, and all around them are the sounds of the early Saturday morning. Tango’s hair is a little messy and he’s gonna need to comb it before they leave the house. He sleeps in his underwear and never bothers to put on real clothes until the very last second. He’s overly critical of himself, but he defends his friends and Jimmy with every ounce of his being, and Jimmy is hopelessly, desperately in love with him. Today is six years since their first date—Jimmy picked Tango up on his bike and they drove around the city for a little while before going to see a movie. Tango had held Jimmy’s hand whenever he could, had laughed brightly at the biggest moments in the film, and had bought Jimmy a refill of popcorn when he spilled it all over himself—and Jimmy forgot.

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    Tango takes Jimmy to the aquarium for their anniversary. That's literally the whole fic.

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    "I've got ice cream in the freezer."

    "Awesome!"

    "Hold on, now. You gotta give me something."

    "What, like... a fiver?"

    "Something better than that."

    "What do you want, then?"

    He’s wearing that look, that smug little Etho smirk, when he answers. "Not much. How about a handjob?"

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    Joel has sex with a lot of people in exchange for ice cream. Also, he's trying to figure out if he's gay or not. These two things are not related (lying).

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    It’s already Midyear, the summer days dawning longer and longer, burning warmer and warmer, and soon it will be Sun’s Height. Four months Tango has known Jimmy; simultaneously a lifetime and a single breath. Sometimes Tango thinks Jimmy is blessed by Akatosh, the way that time seems to flow around him in whatever stream he pleases.

    But Akatosh is not the Divine Jimmy serves, Tango doesn’t think. He’s seen the outline of Jimmy’s treasured pendant, traced it with his eyes enough times to have a pretty good idea that Jimmy devotes himself to Ysmir.

    Two months ago, in Rain’s Hand, the Dovahkiin made clear his intention to join the Stormcloaks. Jarl Balgruuf of Whiterun joined the Imperials. Jimmy is not barred from Whiterun—the entire guard force couldn’t keep him out if this was where he wanted to be—but it should mean that they can’t see each other like this. Certainly not so publicly.

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    Against a backdrop of a civil war, in between fighting Dragons, Jimmy falls in love.

    The universe has a lot to say about that.

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    In every functional way, Joel is a perfect alpha. But lai has omega pheremones, and occasionally omega-adjacent impulses and instincts. Lai needs an alpha to soothe li when lai gets upset (that’s what Jimmy and Bdubs are for). Lai nests when lai’s particularly distressed. Lai still has ruts, though, and if lai had an omega partner, lai could get them pregnant, just like any other alpha.

    But still… people assume lai’s an omega, because lai smells like an omega, and lai’s not about to tell them lai’s a beta. Lai doesn’t want that kind of heat. Lai doesn’t want to hear the comments, lai doesn’t want to invite the violence.

    (Lai still has nightmares about picking Jimmy up from the ER when lai got beaten up for being a beta, and when Scar told li about what its parents did to it when it presented as a beta, lai almost threw up.)

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    Joel goes to a support group for betas, and finally speaks about lir experiences.

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    Bdubs swallows. “You know how he likes horses?”

    Joel’s eyes narrow. “No,” he says sharply, and Bdubs knows he’s not answering the question. He’s answering what Bdubs isn’t saying.

    Please, Joel?” Bdubs requests. “He’ll hate it so much. It’ll be so funny.”

    “I am not coming to one of your blummin’ horse shows,” Joel says stoutly. “You couldn’t pay me.”

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    And darling, I was never prepared for a whirlwind romance. But I held you while I had you, when you were all I needed.

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    “I like beating Bdubs up.”

    Bdubs turns back to him, some of the gleam returning to his gaze. “Yeah, well I’m gonna hand you your lunch! I’m gonna shake you down for your pocket change! I’m gonna– I’m gonna—”

    “Are you gonna come up with a better threat?” Joel goads. He just needs to keep Bdubs’ attention on him. Everyone else can focus on Etho, as they probably should be considering it’s his birthday, but Bdubs… Bdubs should always be looking at Joel.

    [Maybe he’s too young yet to name the warm feeling that grows in his chest when he looks at Bdubs. To give voice to the ugly, caustic part of him that hates the way Bdubs looks at Etho, and thinks about Etho, and talks about Etho– all the time, Etho this, Etho that. He chews on it like sunflower seeds, trying to swallow the bitterness with his cherry soda. He’s too young. But soon.]

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    It’s a nice hotel room, certainly. Joel glances into the bathroom, which is pretty spacious for a hotel room, but freezes when Bdubs calls back to him. “Joel? We have a problem.”

    Joel hesitantly steps out of the bathroom, his suitcase rolling along behind him, and he stops when he sees the bed.

    Bed. Singular. Only one.

    “Blummin’ heck—”

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    From: Gemini Taylor ([email protected])
    To: Joel Pinto ([email protected]); Pearl Lunaria ([email protected])
    Subject: Bdubs is going to Kill you

    Joel,

    I hope you know that I will not speak at your funeral. I will, however, use your life insurance to cater, and we will have spinach ravioli while we laugh at the way you brought about your own demise.

    Prof. Gemini Taylor (she/her/hers)
    Boatem University College of Fine Arts
    “If service is below you, leadership is beyond you.”
    [email protected] – 772-841-2833

     

    From: Pearl Lunaria ([email protected])
    To: Joel Pinto ([email protected]); Gemini Taylor ([email protected])
    Subject: RE: Bdubs is going to Kill you

    Don’t worry mate, I’ll sub in for Gem as your sister. I’ll try and come up with something nice to say, other than “he was an idiot.”

    Pearl Lunaria, PhD (she/ve/moon)
    Associate Professor of Graphic Design
    Boatem University School of Fine Arts
    [email protected]

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    “I’m not gay,” says Joel quietly, like he’s questioning himself. Or Bdubs is reading too much into it, that’s a possibility as well.

    Bdubs suppresses the laughter that threatens to bubble in his chest. “You're not gay,” he repeats, unable to mask his disbelief. “I got news for ya, buddy, straight guys don't look at me like that.”

    An affronted noise echoes in the darkness. “Look at you like what?”

    “Like they want to spread me out on their bedsheets and devour me like a three-course meal,” Bdubs answers, amused.

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    She can hear Beth’s smile through the crackle of static; Beth must be going through the rough part of the Corridor where the service is spotty. “Alright, see you soon! I just gotta stop at home and then I’ll be on my way. Love ya to death!”

    Beth hangs up before Jay can respond. Probably for the best; she never knows what to say when Beth tells her that. She never knows how to answer without betraying the emotion that quivers in her chest, viscous and sweet like molasses and so, so raw where it intersects with the knowledge that no one, not even her best friend Beth, will ever love her as the woman she so desperately wants to be.

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    he’s not like lizzie or scar or even jimmy, he doesn’t wear his heart on his sleeve. but you’ve never needed fancy declarations of love, not when he shows you in every little action. not when he kisses you like that, when he leaves statues of himself at your base, when he keeps up the obsession bit long after it’s stopped being funny to everyone else.

    still. it might be nice to have something when you’ve worked this hard.

    no, you can’t think like that. he’s given you everything and you have the audacity to ask him for more?

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