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"you actually gonna talk today nance or we doing the silence again?"
"wow- filpping me off again i thought we were friends"
For as long as Nancy Smith could remember, her world had been defined by silence.
It wasn't the peaceful kind of silence people romanticize in novels or meditation apps. It was the heavy, echoing kind that settled into the corners of rooms and pressed against her chest like an invisible weight. Her mother, a nurse who worked back-to-back shifts at the county hospital, would stumble through the front door long after dark, her scrubs carrying the faint scent of antiseptic and exhaustion. She'd kiss Nancy on the top of the head with chapped lips, mutter something about leftovers in the fridge, and collapse onto the couch before the nightly news even finished its opening credits.
Their house on the corner of Maple Street was small, neat to the point of sterility, and painfully lonely. Every footstep sounded louder than it should have. Every creak of the floorboards announced her presence like a confession. The walls were painted a soft, inoffensive beige that her mother had chosen because it "didn't show dirt," but to Nancy it simply looked like the color of nothing. There were no loud arguments, no spontaneous laughter ringing through the halls, no surprise visitors dropping by with casseroles or gossip. Just the steady tick of the kitchen clock and the occasional hum of the refrigerator reminding her that time was passing whether she filled it or not.
Nancy learned early how to take care of herself. By age eight she could make her own peanut butter sandwiches, wash her own clothes, and braid her hair without a mirror. She knew which cabinet held the spare batteries for the smoke detector and how to stretch a single box of macaroni and cheese into three meals. She became an expert at staying out of the way—quiet footsteps, smaller portions, fewer questions. When the silence grew too loud, she turned to books and sketchpads the way other kids turned to friends or video games. She drew entire worlds in the margins of her notebooks: bustling cities with laughing crowds, families gathered around crowded dinner tables, girls with loud voices and even louder dreams. In those pages, she was never alone.
And then there was the house next door.
The Gallagher place was everything hers wasn't.
It was chaos in the most literal sense—doors slamming at all hours, voices raised in overlapping arguments and laughter, music blasting from open windows even in the dead of winter. The lawn was a patchwork of half-dead grass, scattered bikes, and whatever random objects the younger kids had dragged outside that day. The paint on the siding peeled in long, curling strips, and the screen door hung at a permanent angle after years of being yanked open by impatient hands. From her bedroom window, Nancy could see straight into their kitchen most evenings: a whirlwind of movement, someone always cooking or fighting or dancing or crying or doing all four at once.
It should have overwhelmed her. In many ways, it did. But it also fascinated her in a way she couldn't explain, even to herself. Where her own home felt like a long, drawn-out pause button, the Gallagher house felt like a living, breathing storm—messy, unpredictable, and vibrantly, undeniably alive. She would sit on her windowsill for hours sometimes, knees drawn to her chest, sketchbook balanced on her lap, secretly cataloging their noise like it was something precious and rare.
And at the center of that storm was Ian Gallagher.
He was the same age as her, all messy red hair, bright eyes, and that crooked grin that seemed to appear even when he was in trouble (which was often). Ian moved through life like he was daring the world to try and slow him down. He climbed trees without checking if the branches would hold, started impromptu basketball games in the middle of the street, and defended his younger siblings with a fierce loyalty that made Nancy's chest ache with something she didn't yet have a name for. He was bold, impulsive, impossible to ignore—and nothing like the careful, quiet girl who lived next door.
From the time they were small, there had been something between them. It wasn't anything dramatic at first. Just a shared glance across the fence when his mother was yelling at him for tracking mud through the house again. A quiet moment on the front steps one summer evening when he'd wandered over with a half-melted popsicle and wordlessly handed her the other half. He never made her feel like she had to speak if she didn't want to. He never teased her for being "the weird quiet girl" like some of the kids at school did. With Ian, she could simply exist, and that was enough.
At school, the whispers followed her like shadows. "Nancy Smith? Yeah, she never talks." "She's always got her nose in a book—like, what's she hiding from?" "Weird, right? Her mom's never even at the PTA meetings." Nancy heard it all and said nothing in return. She didn't need to defend herself. Because no matter how invisible she felt in the crowded hallways or during lunch period, she always had the Gallaghers just next door. And Ian—who somehow made the constant noise of his world feel less overwhelming, and the silence of hers feel a little less heavy.
She started finding excuses to be outside when she knew he'd be around. Offering to help his little sister with her homework just so she could sit at their chaotic kitchen table for an hour. Riding her bike past their house a few extra times after school. Leaving her window cracked open on warm nights so she could fall asleep to the sound of their laughter drifting across the yard.
As they got older, though, things began to shift in ways neither of them could control.
Feelings grew complicated. Stolen glances turned into lingering ones. Casual conversations on the porch stretched longer and deeper. Ian started showing up at her door with random excuses—a missing notebook, a question about math homework he already knew the answer to—just to see her. And Nancy, who had spent her whole life perfecting the art of disappearing into the background, found herself wanting to be seen. By him, especially.
Lines blurred. The careful distance she'd always maintained between her quiet world and their loud one started to dissolve. She caught herself laughing at his terrible jokes, blushing when his hand accidentally brushed hers, lying awake at night replaying the way he'd looked at her when he thought she wasn't paying attention.
The messy, unpredictable world Nancy had always watched safely from a distance was beginning to pull her in, whether she was ready or not.
Because liking Ian Gallagher was never going to be simple.
He came with a house full of siblings who fought as fiercely as they loved, a mother whose moods could shift like the weather, and a life that seemed to run on pure adrenaline and bad decisions. He came with noise and complications and secrets that weren't always pretty. But he also came with warmth. With loyalty. With the kind of steady presence that made her feel anchored even when everything else felt like it was spinning.
In a neighborhood where nothing stayed hidden for long—where gossip traveled faster than the mail and everyone knew everyone else's business—Nancy was about to learn that love, like family, didn't whisper.
It was loud.
It was chaotic.
It was messy and imperfect and sometimes terrifying.
But it was also real.
And for a girl who had grown up in silence, that kind of loud might have been exactly what she'd been missing all along.
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STORY WARNING AND TW'S
-DRUG ABUSE
-ALCOHOL USE
-REFERENCE TO SA TRAUMU
-SUGGESTIVE DIALOGUE
-EXPLICIT LANGUAGE
-TOXIC FRIENDSHIPS
-BULLYING
-DEPRESSION
-OVERDOSING
-SEXUAL CONTENT
RATED M FOR MATURE AUDIENCES ONLY
Bi! Ian Gallagaher x Fem! OC
And
Mickey Milkovich x Fem! OC
Poly later in the story
Note:
I have not seen shameless and I will not be watching it. All of my information is from the fandom page and episode summaries. If I wrote a character wrong in anyway please let me know so I know what to fix