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As Jungkook returned to full consciousness he felt a heavy pressure draped over him, the back of his neck felt hot and sticky and everything smelled familiar but he couldn't quite place his finger on what it smelled like. That was until he realised what the heavy pressure was, an arm, it was an arm that pulled him closer to the person it was attached to, “Good morning baby,” the voice sounded rough, but warm and welcoming, “sleep well?”
Before he could answer he felt something slip out of him, feeling his hole clench around the cool air and letting out an embarrassing whine at the emptiness, “I think so… my body is so achy hyung, what did you do to me?” His mind felt so hazy, he could hardly remember the previous night’s events.
Namjoon smirked as he put on some sweats to cover his naked legs, recalling everything perfectly fine, they'd fucked on just about every surface in Namjoon's apartment, “Fucked you good like you deserve, didn't think you'd be able to walk this morning, am I right?”
Jungkook hesitated for a moment, but slipped his legs out from under the covers and placed both of his feet on the ground, Namjoon’s dragon eyes were fixated on his every move, watching and filled with caution as he went to stand - and unsurprisingly toppled, but caught himself on the bed.
“Damn… I guess so, thank God it’s the weekend, hm?” Namjoon smirked.
He rolled his eyes, “You're not funny Joon, I have assignments I've gotta do!”
The older laughed and bit down on his bottom lip at the younger’s cute actions, “Well luckily for you I'm your professor, I'll just give you an extension.”
Jungkook shuffled as he tried to steady himself on the bed, pulling the covers over his bare body, “I don't want special treatment just because I'm sleeping with the teacher… this whole situation is messy enough as it is.”
He was right, it was a whole mess, they'd fucked up time and time again, and they continued to do so, “So you're just sleeping with me? What happened to “there's this guy I like”, am I just a quick fuck to you?” asked the older.
Jungkook smirked and muttered under his breath, “You're hardly quick, you take hours fucking me,” clearly thinking he was some sort of comedian.
“Well would you rather I treat you like a piece of meat and just fuck you until I'm satisfied? I like to make sure you get something out of it to, now answer the question, is this just sex to you?” Jungkook had never heard him that angry before in the whole time he had known him.
“God! I don't know hyung? This is just a mess, we shouldn't have kept doing it after we knew you were going to be teaching me, and I'm not blaming you trust me, I'm not, we're both to blame, but it's so hard for me to tell if i like you or if it's just… lust? We haven't even gone on a real date, we can't go on a real date, how am I supposed to get to know you better when we can't even be out in public together without risking losing one, or both, of our positions at the uni?” his frustrations finally got the better of him.
Namjoon rested his back against his dresser while he stood there in thought for a moment, trying to cool down after he'd lashed out just a moment ago, “No, you're right, you're completely right, but I like you Jungkook, even if it's just a little bit, I do, and I want to get to know you better, if you'll let me?”
He was completely bewildered, how were they to get to know each other better when they couldn't even go anywhere together.
“I would love to let you, hyung,” Namjoon's smile beamed at that, his dimples becoming more apparent, “but,”
Ah… there is, the ‘but’. Namjoon thought.
“But how do you plan on it?” he asked, eyes softening as he looked directly into the older’s.
“You can come over, I can order some food in, we can travel out of the city, etcetera etcetera, you know?” he nodded, a little too desperately in his attempt to convince the younger man, “It won't be easy, but I can make it worth it, I promise.”
He considered for a moment, “I need more time to think about it if that's okay with you.”
“Yeah, of course it is,” he smiled again, this time much softer, his dimples hardly visible.
“Do you think you could maybe help me get into a cab… and get dressed?”
Namjoon walked over to the bed and stood in front of Jungkook, “Don't be dumb, I did this to you, I'll take care of you until you can get back on your feet, unless you want to go, that is.”
Jungkook shook his head, “No, I wanna stay here with you, I just wanted to shower and put on some clean clothes.”
“You can borrow some of mine, and how about I run you a bath instead?”
He perked up at that and smiled, nodding his head slightly.
Namjoon leant forward and pressed his forehead against Jungkook's, then stole a soft peck before exiting the room.
——♡——
The younger had somehow managed to drift back to sleep in the short amount of time that Namjoon was gone, waking up when he felt himself being lifted off the bed by his strong arms.
He placed him on the counter and brushed his bangs out of his face so gently, then parted Jungkook's legs to stand between Jungkook's heart fluttered at the action, he finally had some clarity on where they stood with each other, and wanted nothing more than to pursue him now, but he knew it'd be risky.
“Think you can get in the bath all on your own like a big boy?” he teased and leant back a bit.
Jungkook hit his chest with the palms of his hands, not hard enough to do any damage or leave a mark, just to show his annoyance a little, “Who said I want to get in the bath on my own?”
“Jungkook… we literally fucked like five times last night, how are you always so horny?” he sighed, but smiled and looked him dead in the eyes.
Jungkook had to look away, his gaze ate right into him, “I’m not horny!?” he shouted, “Not right now at least… I just thought it’d be cute if we had a bath together, we don't have to if you don't want to of course but I just-” his rambling was cut off by Namjoon shutting him up with a delicate kiss, it was innocent really.
“Shut up, of course I want to baby, I was only messing with you.”
He undid the cords to his sweatpants and they dropped to the ground, then looked up at at Jungkook, whose gaze trailed up his body until it landed on his eyes, his cheeks grew flushed and he became a little flustered, earning himself a smirk from Namjoon. He hooked his hands under the younger’s thighs, who mimicked his actions by hooking his arms around his shoulders and his legs around his waist.
He carried them over to the bath and stepped in, adjusting Jungkook's legs so that they'd both fit in the bath, then finally he sat down, with Jungkook practically straddling him, not in a sexual way though, apart from the nudity, the whole situation was quite soft and innocent.
The water almost overflowed with the two of them in a bath that was only made for one, but they hardly even noticed, too caught up in each other's presence.
Jungkook was the first to break the silence, he brought his now wet hands up to Namjoon's face and smoothed over his cheeks, then leant forward to press a kiss to his nose, “You're so pretty hyung.” he giggled, then hid his head in the crook of his neck, peppering gentle kisses against it.
This caused Namjoon's heart to pound ten times faster, maybe he liked Jungkook more than just a little bit, or maybe he just liked the compliment, yeah that must've been it.
“If you think I'm pretty then you must be out of this world, you're perfect, baby,” he said, pressing a soft peck against his head.
Jungkook pulled back for a moment, then grabbed some shampoo from the side and lathered it in Namjoon’s hair, then he used the excess bubbles to give the older a fake beard and moustache, once again giggling at the older’s appearance, it was the sweetest sound in the world, Namjoon thought.
Something shifted between them during that bath, or maybe it was something that had always been there, underlying, dormant, and it just needed a nudge to be awoken, because they both realised they could get used to this, didn't care that they were at completely different points in their lives, or that their relationship was supposed to be exclusively professional, because all that was on Jungkook's mind was Namjoon, Namjoon, Namjoon, and all that was on Namjoon's mind? Jungkook, Jungkook, Jungkook.
——♡——
After they were all clean and dry they decided to cuddle up on the couch and put on a movie, Spiderman, Jungkook said it was his favourite, they didn't want to worry about anything, about what was to come, they were just fully consumed by each other's presence.
At some point, he wasn't sure when, but Jungkook had ended up drifting off in Namjoon's hold, he looked so small in Namjoon's shirt, it drowned him. Cute.
But now that Namjoon was left alone with his thoughts, he felt a pang in his heart, he didn't want to think about anything other than Jungkook, the night was creeping in and everything was getting dark and he began to panic, only realising he was crying when he felt Jungkook stir beneath him after a tear had hit his cheek.
“Hyung, are you okay?” he asked, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
Namjoon could only nod, with the fear of his voice breaking if he tried to vocalise his thoughts.
“Are you sure?”
Another nod.
“I don't believe you.”
“I'm fine Jungkook.”
“You're lying, hyung don't lie to me,” he almost pleaded, fully sitting up now, taking the older’s face between his palms, “what's wrong, tell me?”
Namjoon shook his head, as if to shake the bad thoughts away, then cleared his throat, “Do you wanna go for a drive?”
“Huh?”
“Do you? I'll tell you what's wrong when we get there, I just need to clear my head and I want you to come with me.”
“Yeah, okay yeah.” he nodded.
——♡——
They walked out of the front door in silence. They walked to the car in silence. The drive there was silent, so silent you could hear a pin drop the entire time.
Namjoon parked in some sort of makeshift parking lot at the top of a hill that overlooked the city. The lights were all that the two of them could focus on.
That was until Namjoon cleared his throat, “This… is where I go when I have a lot on my mind. I haven't been here in a while, and I've never been here with anybody else, that being said, we need to talk.”
Jungkook sniffled and went to speak, “Joon-'' his voice broke, “we've talked enough, all we do is talk, I'm done with talking.” his words held so much pain, Namjoon couldn't do this anymore, he couldn't keep dipping his toes in the water only to never fully get in, he couldn't keep hurting Jungkook, hurting himself.
“Then listen, please?” he begged, there was just as much pain in his voice as there was in the younger’s.
He stared into his eyes for a moment, hoping to find something that said for him to keep talking, but eventually Jungkook nodded anyway.
“I like you Jungkook, I really like you-” Jungkook tried to cut in but Namjoon raised his hand to silence him before he could even get a word in, “which is why we can't do this anymore, it's not good, it's not healthy, it's a constant back and forth between us saying we'll stay away and then five hours later we're having sex, it has to stop for rea this time, because I know if I develop anymore feelings I won't be able to stop, it'll be too late.”
Jungkook finally broke, the tears began to pour and they showed no signs of stopping, “Joonie… it’s already too late, I think I might be falling for you.” he sobbed, climbing over to sit on Namjoon's lap and cry into his neck.
“No baby, don't say that, you're just young, confused, you have so much of your life ahead of you, don't waste your time on me.” he whispered, placing gentle kisses against his forehead and stroking up and down his back.
Jungkook could hardly be heard between his broken sobs, “B-But I've never felt this way for anyone before, I don't want it to go to waste.”
“I know baby, I know, I don't want this to end either, but I need to be the adult right now, and it has to stop before it continues to spiral,” he brushed Jungkook's hair out of his face and looked into his eyes, “you're so pretty, Jungkook, so smart, so funny, so talented, you deserve someone who's available for you, someone who isn't me.”
“I don't care, I want you, I don't want anybody else.”
“God I wish you would just make this easy.”
“I wish you wouldn't do this at all.”
They both giggled a little at that.
“I'm gonna miss you so much baby, but we need to stop, you know that, right? You know that it's different when I say it this time?”
Jungkook nodded, he hit his palms against Namjoon's chest, “This is so stupid, we just met at the right place but the wrong time… can I get one last kiss for the road maybe?”
“You know I'm dropping you home right?”
“Shut up, I wanted to say some cliche shit like they do in the movies.”
They pressed their foreheads together, slowly closing the gap and finally sealing it with a kiss, so soft and tender, it was the most passionate kiss they'd ever shared, their hearts broke even more as each second passed, more and more and more until almost nothing remained.
“I'll wait for you, whether you like it or not Joonie, I'm gonna wait for you.” and that was the last thing he said before he climbed back into his seat, they ride back to Jungkook's dorm was silent, he didn't even utter so much as a “goodbye” or even a “thank you” he just got out of the car, slammed the door and sprinted off to his dorm, to be comforted by Jimin, and probably Taehyung too no doubt.
Namjoon had to hit the gas before the tears began to fall once more.