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I don't know how I'm going to start off this fanfic. Honestly I just looked for a vocaloid song and I'm going to base it off the lore and lyrics. For this one it is Rolling Girl. For some reason I always head cannon one character in any franchise to SH or have mental issues. For this one it's Bankotsu. It makes little to no sense but stick with me here. If i am correct, rolling girl is about a girl who struggles with mental issues. I actually advise you to pull up the english lyrics to get the references used in the fanfic.
This format is inspired off of kiramaru7
Title; rolling boy
Pairing ;implied jakotsu/bankotsu jak/banko
Characters; Jakotsu, Bankotsu, Renkotsu, Suikotsu
Warnings ; Self-harm,suicide thoughts, mental issues, etc
Summary ; rolling girl lyrics but based off of my Headcannons for bankotsu.
Age rating ; teen and up
Words ; 520
Fandom ; inuyasha a feudal fairytale
Song (if any) : rolling girl - Wowaka
Ever since Bankotsu was a little kid he loved staying in his dreams. He knew how to lucid dream at quite a young age that's why he enjoyed it so much. He only wants to stay in his dreams, escape the evil world that he was born in.
He wasn't one to like loud noises, screaming, crowds. That's why he kills his victims before they get a chance to scream. It tends to hurt his ears quite a bit honestly. Like slicing layers away in his head. The screaming makes him want to go away.
Each opponent he encounters he just says “no problem” and continues on with his day. He’s repeated this multiple times now, it's starting to get gray.
He failed and failed again when he was a kid. He used to fuss over mistakes he used to think would remain with him for quite a while. But then it just starts over again. “No problem” he always thinks.
Just like once more, he knows he will roll again and roll again. New mistakes were made, problems never solved, new opponents encountered. Just once more, sometimes he even says to himself
“I will roll today again, I'm sure.” oh, that boy will roll again, oh that boy said, that's what he said.
Playing each word like a strategic game of cards, and playing pretend like kids would a game. Sometimes he gets pulled out of his thoughts with jakotsu or even suikotsu saying “are you better now?”
Sometimes he has the thoughts to lie and say he is, but he could never be dishonest to his comrades so he responds with “no, i don't know how.” At this point what is the point of living? It's either pain and suffering or death.
“Please just let me stop my breath right now” he says as he grazes the makeshift blade against his skin. “Right now!” as he accidentally cut deeper. It's bleeding everywhere now.
“No problem.” he always says when that happens. Even though he is filled with pain and guilt. “You’ll be fine” is probably what renkotsu would say, And yes he would be fine as long as the cut doesn't get infected.
Even though he would see Bankotsu on the way to his neverending fate. He would just watch Bankotsu roll once more.
Just like once more, he knows he will roll again and roll again. “I will roll today again, I'm sure.” oh, that boy will roll again, oh that boy said, that's what he said.
Playing each word like a strategic game of cards, and playing pretend like kids would a game. Sometimes he gets pulled out of his thoughts with jakotsu or even suikotsu saying “are you better now?”
Until he hears that last voice. “Just once more?” He will tell the truth and will not hesitate. “No, no more.” He's going to take the hand, and meet his family that was caught in the destruction of his village.
It's going to be okay.
“Please just let me stop my breath right now”
“Just for now” , Jakotsu responds by kissing the younger male's hand.