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SEUNGMIN
it was a fairly warm Wednesday, the birds singing there own little song as the sun beamed its happiness onto us. The day went fairly smoothly, way better than any of us expected. We all had a group dance practice for our new comeback then me and Jeongin had vocal practice. Then after the schedules had finished we had a group live to do. I loved interacting with STAY, we love seeing their comments , seeing how happy we make them, then maybe not knowing how happy they make us, and how they make us stay.This is what we were doing now, I was sitting by Jisung on the end of the couch with Chan infront of me. Everyone else had there phone but me. STAYS think it's because everyone uses my phone for the lives but honestly I don't usually use it because I like interacting with STAYS and just end up looking at someone else's phone. We waited till the live had started before we all spoke
'step out hello we are stray kids'
We watched as the comments flood the screen from the fans, some saying they missed us and were asking us if we ate today
"hey everyone how are we all?"Chan asked waving at the camera.
"we've been practicing hard today, hope your all excited for the comeback!" Hyunjin cheered gaining an energetic 'woohoo' from all of us.the comments were flooded with lots of 'yayy'
"we all ate well today." Jisung responded reading stays comments asking us if we had ate.I decided to read some of the comments out of curiosity.
'can we all talk about seungmins weight?'
'how much did seungmin eat?'
'he ate the whole menu'
they caught my eye. yes obviously there were nice ones complementing each members looks and stuff, but barely anything about me. the others didn't catch onto the comments which i was glad about due to the fact they all had so much stress on their shoulders anyways and I didn't want to make it worse I decided to ignore them as they were just people who were trying to make me feel bad. I was participating in the conversation that was going on, getting my point across until I saw more comments.
'Seungmin no one cares'
'shut up seungmin'
'he thinks he's funny'
I looked at them. replaying them. I decided to just shut up and keep my opinions to myself as they were irrelevant anyways.
After the live had ended we all headed to do our own things. I was about to head back to the dorm before Hyunjin called me.
"hey.. I noticed you were quiet in the live today. are you okay." he questioned.
"I'm fine.. I'm just tired." I replied. it was half true, I honestly couldn't wait to get my pajamas on and get into bed and sleep away everyone's thoughts about me which were probably true anyways.
"that's fair.. we've had a busy day today. rest well I'll see you soon" he replied walking off and seeing Felix and instantly running to him.
I walked back to the dorm. the cold air hitting me in the face making my hair blow in weird directions. I finally made it back into the dorm and unlocked the door, first thing we always do which was a rule set by Changbin was taking our shoes off by the door, I walked in too see Chan and Jeongin sitting at the table together having a conversation that I couldn't really care about, I just wanted to go to sleep for a while.
"hey Seungmin." chan said turning around to see me.
"hey" I said.
"are you okay?" Jeongin asked looking at me with worried eyes.
"I'm fine.. I'm going up to bed. I'm so tired" I replied walking past the both of them up to my room. I didn't miss the concerned look the both gave eachother.I'm always worrying everyone for no reason.I got into my shared room with Felix and threw my bag on the floor. in anger? confusion? sadness? I don't know. I didn't even bother thinking about cleaning,I was too tired for that. I grabbed the first hoodie I saw and quickly put it on before crawling into bed and falling into a much needed deep sleep.
finally.