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“Felix, can you come here for a minute?”
Felix put down the shirt he was in the middle of folding and skipped into the kitchen. 3 of his boyfriends were gathered around the island and Hyunjin smiled at him when he walked in. He smiled back and skipped over to him. Jisung was also there and seemed pretty upset. Once Felix noticed the scent of burnt caramel, he quickly looked towards Jisung. Stepping forward with his arms out to comfort him, Felix let out a soft purr to try to comfort the other omega.
Even with his good-natured intentions however, Felix should have paid more attention to Jisung’s body language. His claws were out, and he had shrunk in on himself as if he was seeking protection. With a fierce hiss, Felix was thrown backwards into hyunjins chair. Hyunjin gasped and scrambled to try to prevent impact, but he was a couple seconds too late. Felix's back hit the leg of the chair, and his head hit hyunjins knee. He let out a mewl as he tried to shake the pain.
Jisung ran into Minho's arms and keened, fat tears running down his face. Minho caught him in his arms and rubbed a hand up and down his back while softly crooning letting out a wave of alpha pheromones. Jisung stuck his nose in the alphas neck, still crying and keening. After a few minutes passed, it was clear that Jisung wouldn't be calming down anytime soon. Minho stood up and picked Jisung up in his arms. He covered the ears of the boy in his arms with his chest and hand before he whipped his head towards Felix and snarled “honestly Felix? Do you ever think? Could you not read the signs that he hadn't wanted to be touched? Now he's starting off his heat week on a bad note because you think it's ok to go around touching people all the time.” the alpha stormed out of the room with the other omega still firmly held in his arms.
Hyunjin shrugged and let out a soft “he's right” before giving Felix a pat on the shoulder " Felix can you please make sure that plenty of fruit and water is ready for when we need it. It seems like this is going to be a rough heat for Jisung. and walking off to follow Minho and Jisung. Feix understood he had made a mistake, but he couldn't help but think that Minho had been a bit cruel and unfair. Felix had learned his lesson when he had been thrown backwards. And it wasn't like he was trying to upset Jisung. He had been wanting to comfort him.
What did he mean by thinking it's ok to go around touching people though? Was he being inconsiderate of others? Had he been making others uncomfortable? Felix knew he was a touch centered kind of person. Touch was his way to feel connected and comforted. It was also how he should comfort and love. Felix's face went pale. Had others been forcing themselves to endure his touch? Surely not right. Felix shook off the thought before picking himself off the floor and quietly making his way to the bedrooms. He passed by an open door and saw one of the betas in his pack in the room.
Seungmin was lying on his bed with a book in his hand. He was wearing Channie hyungs sweater and had his nose buried in the collar, breathing in the pack alphas scent. Felix cooed softly looking at the beta all cozy and comfortable. He made his way to the side of the bed and ran his finger through the boy's fluffy hair. Seungmin shifted his head out of Felix's reach, but Felix didn't think much of it.
In the beginning of the relationship, Felix had given up on touching Seungmin as he had seemed to hate it with all the avoiding and pulling away he had done. But a couple weeks later, he found Seungmin crying because he was under the impression that Felix no longer liked him. The beta had realized quickly that touch was a love language for the omega and when felix had stopped, he thought the worst.
He reached back out for Seungmin and lowered his head to scent the top of his head but this time the beta fully pulled back and held out a hand to stop felix from getting any closer.
“Felix, you smell bad.” the beta whined. “I don't want you to taint Channies hoodie.” Seungmin buried his nose deeper into Channies hoodie. Felix paused before pulling back. He smelled bad? But they always reassured him that he smelled good. Had they truly thought his scent was bad? Had they just told him they liked his scent to make him feel better? Felix quickly plastered a grin on his face and let out a semi cheerful “Sorry Seungmin” before making his way out of the room and into his own.
Felix was pretty worried. So far it seemed like the truth was slipping out and was scared there were other things as well that he didn't realize he was doing that had annoyed others. Maybe they didn't like his loud singing. They all seemed to groan playfully, but maybe they were actually annoyed but didn't say anything because Felix was sensitive. But he had no way of knowing what the others found annoying so he resolved to try to fix the ones that he could think of. So, the touching was on the list as was his loud singing. He couldn't do much about his scent other than scent blockers. He went to his dresser and pulled out two and put them on his scent glands. He definitely wasn't going to subject people to his scent if they didn't actually like it. He resolved to limit his touching of others as well as quiet down and not be so loud.
A thought struck him. So far two of the things his ex had hated about him had been called out today by his pack. What about his voice? He had a naturally deep voice, and his ex Seojin hated it. Maybe he had been right. Maybe the things he had hated about Felix and forced him to change were weird and gross. Oh god. The pack probably hated the same things about him and for some reason had told him that they didn't. That his ex had been wrong. But a year later it was all coming out. Maybe the pack had said it because they were tired of him hiding and crying all the time. Maybe all he had done since joining this pack was annoy them.
Felix's thoughts were spiraling but at that moment he wasn't able to recognize it. All he could think of was how he had bothered every single one of his mates for the last year. All because he was a sensitive crybaby. They hadn't even felt like they could tell him. The omegas breathing was getting erratic and choppy, and he could feel his head going blank and fuzzy. He let out a choked sob, before quickly crossing his room to his closet where he kept his nest. He stopped in his tracks as he looked at the pile of clothing and blankets.
Except it wasn't there. It was gone. His entire next was gone. He sank to his knees. A nest was very important to an omega. It was their safe place, and where omegas went to feel comfortable omegas were very picky about their nests and sometimes Felix would spend hours rearranging his nest to make sure it was perfect. To destroy an omegas nest or to take it away completely was truly the worst thing you could do. It messed with their mind and heart.
This proved it to Felix. This proved that his pack was fed up and done with him. They were finished pretending that he wasn't an annoying smelly ugly omega. He stumbled to his knees, barely able to breathe. his body got hot before it seemed like the room plummeted into an ice bath. He shivered as he lay on his side and crawled his way under his bed. Curling up in a ball to try to keep himself warm, He let the tears flow quietly as he drifted off into a restless sleep.