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“You promised!” Theo’s voice broke as he shouted at Loki while he was sucked up in the rainbow light of the Bifrost. Tears pricked his eyes, threatening to fall. He wasn’t going to cry, not there, not in the middle of the woods. He picked himself up stretching his bad leg. As he was picking up his cane, Gem came out of the woods into the fairy circle.
“Theo are you alright,” Gem asked
“Yes I’m fine physically but mentally no” Theo snarky replied
“May I ask why?”
“Well, Loki promised to take me back to Asgard and show me around since I did it with Midgard for him. I guess they do call him the father of lies for a reason.”
“Oh theo don’t that’s horrible. Maybe he just forgot”
“Are gods even able to forget things, and if they can I highly doubt that he did.”
With that Gem fell silent and looked at the ground
“At least I know i'm not wrong since your not saying anything”
“That's not what I'm trying to say, I'm just not sure how I should've responded.”
“I would like to be alone,” theo said while walking away as fast as his bad leg would allow. Gem didn't even try to stop him; he knew from experience that pissing off Theo, even more, was a bad idea. Theo was grateful for that.
When he got into his apartment that made things much worse, seeing the bed they had shared. He thought the stories about Loki weren't true, he believed in Loki, but he had betrayed him. Had the kiss meant nothing to Loki, did Loki just want to fuck with Theo's feelings? Was this a game to Loki? His thoughts pulled him over the edge, and with tears streaming down his cheeks he laid down in his bed. He sat there with his legs pressed to his chest. His bad leg ached but he didn't care, the pain was grounding. His heart hurt longing for Loki to come and bring him to Asgard. His body longed for the god’s touch once more. It didn’t hurt this much when he found out that the first people he had ever kissed turned him in for being gay. He would feel better if he could talk to someone about Loki however, Gem wouldn't understand and Mrs. Sharp is dead. It makes him feel worse that Loki just let Mrs. S die. He was right there he could have saved her. He felt that he was at fault because if Loki had never seen what Theo's books said about him, Mrs. S would probably still be alive. With Theo's sobs getting louder his body started to shake. His stomach swirled, even though he had not eaten anything. Once his eyes burned and his lungs ached he fell asleep
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Theo’s shout was replaying in Loki's head, all he could think about was the hurt in Theo’s voice when he failed to follow through on his promise. He wanted to bring him, he really did. However, he wasn't sure how his father would react to him coming home with the norn stones, an army and a random midgardian. He felt guilty for going back on his promise but he didn't want Theo to get hurt or die. Loki knew Theo well enough by now that if he went back Theo wouldn't want to hear him out. He really wanted to but his father wouldn't let him go back to midgard at least right now, with Thor's ceremony coming up. Loki wishes he wouldn't have to go, after all that had happened in the last couple of days his father was still allowing him to be seen in public. Tears stung Loki’s face, this was only the second time he had felt this way about someone. The first time was when Amora got banished, and now it was about Theo. The more he thought about Theo the more he missed him, But he just couldn't get his soft red hair, the dimple on his cheeks, and the dorky smile he always wore on his face out of his head. Tears rolled down his face with pain, he wanted to prove the stories wrong but he hadn't he lied to theo, and broke his promise. suddenly there was a knock at Loki’s door
Loki got up, wiping the tears off his face. He drew a deep breath and opened his door, to his surprise it was Thor. “Thor, what are you doing here?” Loki stammered, surprised.
“Brother, are you okay?” Thor asked, pulling Loki into a hug. “Why are you crying?”
“It is none of your business, you don't need to worry about it.” Loki tried to push Thor off of him but Thor just squeezed him harder. “I'm your brother i'm allowed to be worried about you”
“No you don’t,” Loki said, annoyed. “Just leave me alone”
“This is about midgard isn't it”
“No” Loki replied a little too quickly
“That answer was a little too fast. I think it is about midgard. Also you are know for lying”
The lying comment hurt Loki. Even his one brother thought of him like that.
“Yeah okay it is about midgard, why do you care.”
“So I know if I have to go and beat someone off,” Thor said, releasing Loki from the hug and laughing.
“You don't have to beat anyone up, besides it my fault anyway,”
“What do you mean brother?”
“You know Theo, the person I told you said hi, he showed me around London and I maybe promised him that I would bring him back to asgard. However, obviously he isn't here. The reason for which is I didn't know how our father would react to me bringing a mortal into Asgard on top of everything.”
“Yeah but why don't you just ask Father?”
“Because, Thor, unlike you. Father doesn't like me. He would never allow me to bring a midgardian to Asgard.”
“Well I could ask for you, he would probably say yes for me.”
“Wait you would do that for me” Loki said, perking up.
“Yeah, why would I lie?” the lying comment hurt Loki for the second time, he knew Thor didn't say it maliciously. “Hold on, I will be right back.”
Loki sat there waiting for Thor to come back. After what felt like an eternity Loki was afraid Thor forgot about him or something happened with their father. His mind spiraled until he was brought out of it by a knock at his door. “Loki, can you let me in” Thor spoke.
“Yeah, hold on, I'll be there in a second.” Loki replied heading towards the door. After he said that he reached for the door knob and unlocked the door. After that was done he went back to his bed. “come in, brother” Loki sighed “the door is unlocked” Thor slowly opened the door
“So father told me that if you go back and stay with Theo for a month, and if he deems Theo trustworthy, you can bring him up to asgard.” Thor told Loki. Loki sat up quickly, “Really? Are you making fun of me?” Thor looked shocked and shook his head
“No, why would you think that now come on, you got a midgardian to see.” Thor pulled loki’s arm “quickly before Father changes his mind”
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“Loki, did you ever care about me?” Theo shouted.
“You thought I cared about you. You small, useless, pathetic Midgardian. No I didn't, I was only pretending. You really believed I liked you.” Loki laughed
“What the fuck Loki, you just wanted to mess with my feelings, gods I think you are the pathetic one” theo said and walked away. Suddenly he was with Mrs. S at her death, “Theo this is your fault. You should have stopped loki. You could’ve helped me, but you failed.” the corpse of Mrs. S hissed. She sat up and her face was rotting, and falling off. “And no one will ever love you you are just a pathetic little faggot”
Theo woke up to a knock at his door in a cold sweat. He was half tempted to not answer it and have the person assume he was not home. However, he had a feeling that he should answer the door. Theo stood up and ran his hand through his hair. He slowly walked to the door wondering who it was. Once again there was a knock at his door “I'm coming '' Theo shouted. When he got to the door he hesitated a bit. He took a deep breath and reached for the door knob. When he opened the door he was greeted by a familiar face of a god. “Go away,” Theo said, trying to shut the door in Loki's face. Loki wedged his foot in the door, “Wait Theo i'm sorry for leaving you.”
“Yeah, you're definitely not just saying that because you want someone’s feelings to mess with.”
“No Theo I mean that, I didn't want you to get hurt or worse” Loki's throat closed up thinking about Theo dying. Theo looked down for a second “whatever you say” he said while closing the door. He sat behind the door for a second, then he opened the door “Loki wait” he shouted, “I want to hear you out, now this doesn't mean I will forgive you” Theo sighed “but it does mean that you can stay here for a little bit. Since you probably don't have anywhere else to stay.” Theo then walked back into his apartment Loki followed him into the apartment. Loki awkwardly stood there waiting for theo to say something
“You want tea,” Theo asked Loki
“No I don't drink tea,” Loki replied
“Your loss I guess,” Theo said while filling a kettle with water. He sat the kettle on the stove, “now, do you want to tell me why you left me here after promising to take me to Asgard.” Theo commanded
“The reason i left you here was because i wasn't sure how my father would react, and i didn’t what you to get hurt, becau-” Loki’s voice broke, “because I love you,”
“No you don't if you really loved me you would have brought me to Asgard, I have a hard time believing you since you have lied to me already”
“Why are you trying to tell me about my own feelings? My father would've killed you if you appeared with me while I had a bunch of undead soldiers and the norn stones. Which is exactly what he saw in the Godseye mirror, which is supposed to show threats to Asgard. I promise you I was trying to protect you. I really do love you, but if you don’t feel the same, that's fine, I’ll leave,” Loki stood up and walked towards the door. Theo panicked and stood up and limped to try to stop him, forgetting his cane. “Loki, wait, I never said that,”
Loki shook his head “you might not of outright said it but I knew what you really wanted to say”
“Loki, you didn’t even give me any time to respond to you. You just panicked and then walked away. I couldn’t process what you said but now I understand your reasoning, I can’t be mad at you when you were just trying to protect me.” Loki turned back to look at Theo, tears spilling out of his eyes “are you being serious you forgive me?”. Loki said, tears spilled down his face. “You will really forgive me, after everything I did to you. After I abandoned you”
Theo laughed “of course I do I’m sorry for being a prick to you. I just thought you were just trying to get me to like you to hurt my feelings. I have a bad habit of lashing out when I think people have betrayed me.”
“Same, but people betray me a lot more than you probably, you get the reputation of being a liar and people betray you ten times more than before. So you make it a habit of leavening people before they can betray you,”
Theo leaned in and kissed Loki, it wasn’t a gentle kiss but it also was not a sensual kiss. It was the perfect mix of the two. Loki broke the kiss and hurried inside of the apartment. Once he got in he pulled Theo through the door. The moment the door closed Loki pushed Theo against the door, and sloppily kissed him. “ Theo I love you so much, I’m so sorry about leaving you.”
“Loki, shut up and kiss me more”
Loki smashed his lips back on Theo's and slowly guided Theo to his bed. “I think we should sleep, we have had a long day”
“One last kiss please Loki.”
“Okay but only because you asked so nicely”