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The amphitheater was cold beneath him in the way old stone always was, no matter how warm the day got. Wooyoung had long since stopped minding it. He liked the chill actually, liked how it seeped up through his black hoodie and grounded him whenever his thoughts started running too fast. Which they have been on and off for three days now.
He had his earbuds in, some playlist he wasn't really listening to so much as using it as white noise. Eyes closed against the mid-afternoon light filtering through the leaves above the tiered seats. This place was always empty this time of day. A quirk of the campus schedule that only their friend group seemed to have discovered, tucked behind the humanities building where nobody else bothered to walk. Today though, it was just him.
His mind kept drifting back to the same memory of four days ago. Not the parts that made his face heat up and his blood rush south, though those were there too, persistent and warm under his skin whenever he let himself think about them. Mostly it was the morning after. The two of them tangled together under Wooyoung's blankets, sunlight doing that soft gold thing it did through his curtains, and San's voice rough with sleep saying Good morning… That was good, right? We're okay? like he needed to hear it confirmed out loud again even with Wooyoung still curled against his chest.
It had been good. Better than good. Enough that when they'd talked logistics over breakfast with bedhead and borrowed sweatpants, Wooyoung somehow already making them both eggs like it was the most natural thing in the world, neither of them had hesitated to set a date.
Still, it arrived faster than he thought he would, but they couldn't and didn't want to wait too long. Wooyoung didn't necessarily want to stream alone again and neither did San. Or at least, that was their argument.
Tomorrow. Their first stream together. With San as something more than his best friend, more than the safe and steady presence who'd been there for what felt almost his whole life. His dom, technically, if they wanted to use the word for it. Wooyoung turned the thought over again, slow and half-lazy in the sun, and felt the same nervous-excited flutter he'd been carrying around all week low in his stomach. Not stress. He was careful with himself about that distinction. Just anticipation, sharp and a little dizzying, like standing at the top of something tall.
He didn't hear San approach, whether because of the music or how lost in his thoughts he was. But he felt the shadow fall over him a second before the voice cut through his music, warm and a little smug.
"I knew I'd find you here."
He cracked one eye open. San was standing over him, backlit by the afternoon sun so that for a second he was mostly silhouette. Broad shoulders, the soft curve of a smile Wooyoung could hear in his voice before he could properly see it. He tugged an earbud out and let it dangle against his collarbone.
"Everyone knows where to find me. That's the whole problem with having a signature spot."
"Not a problem for me." San dropped down onto the stone beside him without waiting for an invitation, close enough that their shoulders bumped and something in Wooyoung's chest did the same easy unbothered settling it always did around him. Except now there was a new layer underneath it, something warmer and less easy to name. He shifted without quite deciding to, tucking himself against San's shoulder, throwing a leg loosely over his.
San didn't tense at the touch. If anything he leaned into it, an arm coming to rest behind Wooyoung like it belonged there.
"I come bearing homework," he said after a moment and reached into his bag.
"Ominous." Wooyoung winced, "What kind anyway? We have no classes together."
"Relax." San pulled out a notebook from his bag, plain, spiral-bound, a little worn at the corner like he'd been carrying it around for days deciding when to actually hand it over, and set it in Wooyoung's lap. "I just wanted to get everything down properly. From the other night and some stuff for tomorrow too."
Wooyoung raised an eyebrow at him but flipped it open anyway, not particularly caring that they were sitting in the middle of campus, however deserted this corner of it was. San's handwriting filled the first few pages, neat in the way it only got when he was being careful about something. Traffic light system. Sir / no title needed. Praise-based, not punishment-based. No degradation unless discussed first. Things they'd already said out loud, already agreed to, but seeing them written down like this… Considered, organized, taken seriously enough to put on paper… It did something warm and unexpected to Wooyoung's chest.
Further in, new additions. Stream dates blocked out in a tentative rhythm. Once every two weeks, on Saturdays. A note that every scene, no exceptions, has to be discussed beforehand. Nothing too important improvised live. A small aside almost shy in how it was phrased about maybe going out afterward on nights they weren't too wrecked. Aftercare doesn't have to just be inside. Dinner? Walk? Whatever you want.
"Tell me if anything's wrong," San said, watching him read with an attentiveness that was almost too careful, like he was bracing for something. "Or if I got anything wrong. Or if you want to add something we maybe didn't discuss about, I don't know, whatever you want. I just wanted it written down somewhere so we're not guessing."
Wooyoung scanned through the rest of it in silence and found nothing to argue with. If anything he found himself smiling at how thorough it was. How San had clearly turned every conversation they'd had over in his head enough times to distill it down to this. He didn't bother pointing out that some of the itemized concerns, checking in twice during longer scenes even if no signal was given, water within reach always, establishing silent code if we can't talk out loud (double tap for example), looked like San being San. Worrying. Making sure. The way he always had long before any of this.
He filed that away instead, quietly, the way he'd been filing away small things all week without letting himself look at them too directly.
"It's good," Wooyoung said instead, tipping his head back against San's shoulder. "Really good, actually. I don't have anything to add."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah." He tapped the page with the outing idea. "I like this part especially."
San's ears went faintly pink, which Wooyoung didn't notice the same way San never noticed when Wooyoung did something equally soft and unguarded.
The sound of footsteps on stone and easy laughter reached them before either of them thought to move, and by the time Wooyoung registered it, Yeosang and Yunho were already halfway down the amphitheater steps, backpacks slung over one shoulder, mid-conversation about something that dissolved the second they spotted the two of them tucked together.
"Well, well," Yeosang said, drawing the words out with a grin spreading slowly and wicked across his face. "Look at the lovebirds."
Wooyoung's head snapped up on reflex, though he didn't quite manage to put any real distance between himself and San. He was too comfortable, too warm where he was, and some petty part of him refused to give them the satisfaction of watching him scramble. He did, however, close the notebook and slide it into his bag in one smooth motion, tucking it away like it was nothing at all.
"We are not lovebirds," he replied, flat, already rolling his eyes even as Yeosang dropped onto the tier below them and Yunho claimed the spot on San's other side, uninvited as always.
"Sure. That's why you're using him as a pillow in broad daylight." Yeosang reached over and flicked San's knee. "Hi, by the way. You're both disgusting."
"Hello to you too," San said, entirely unbothered and the amusement in his voice was obvious enough that Wooyoung didn't even need to look at him to know exactly what expression he was wearing. That soft, pleased little smile he got whenever something charmed him more than it annoyed him, which happened embarrassingly often when it came to their friends' teasing. If anything he looked delighted by it, settling back against the stone like he had nowhere better to be and no intention of loosening his arm from around Wooyoung either.
"We've been best friends since high school," Wooyoung said, aiming for exasperation and only halfway landing it. "This is not new information for either of you."
"Mhm, sure, but best friends don't usually look like that." Yunho tilted his head, considering them both with the kind of open curiosity that came from genuinely not caring if the question was rude. "You're basically in his lap, Wooyoung-ah. You both look like Mingi and I when we were circling each other."
"Ew…" Wooyoung made a face.
"Hey!" Yunho was outraged. "What the hell was that face!"
"You guys were literally grinding against each other back in time, I am just sitting next to San."
"You have a leg over him."
"I have a leg over him," Wooyoung repeated, deadpan, "because it's comfortable. This is a hard bench and I am optimizing for comfort."
"Right." Yunho didn't look remotely convinced, glancing between the two of them with the particular delight of someone who had clearly been waiting for an opening like this. "And the fact that San's just sitting there grinning like an idiot the whole time, that's also just 'comfort optimization.'"
"I plead the fifth," San said cheerfully, which was somehow worse than if he'd actually denied it and Wooyoung elbowed him lightly in the ribs without any real force behind it.
Yeosang laughed, easy and unbothered, already reaching for something in his own bag and letting the subject go the way he usually did. More interested in whatever gossip he'd actually walked over here to share than in pressing an issue that clearly wasn't going anywhere today. Yunho meanwhile, kept his eyes on Wooyoung a beat longer than necessary, something a little more searching underneath the teasing, the kind of look that came from years of being close enough to notice small differences before anyone bothered explaining them.
Wooyoung held his gaze, unflinching, daring him to say something else.
Yunho let it go for once, though the smirk stayed put, tucked at the corner of his mouth like he was filing the moment away for later, the same way Wooyoung had been quietly filing away small things about San all week.
"Anyway," Yeosang said, pulling a battered textbook out of his bag like he hadn't just been needling them both a full minute ago, "I actually came to complain about Professor Lee, not to interrogate you two, so if we could redirect."
"You say that like it's not the third time this week," San said.
"It's a genuinely unreasonable amount of reading for a Tuesday. I have a life." Yeosang flipped the book open, found his page, and held it up like evidence. "Look at this. Look at the size of this chapter."
"You could just not do the reading," Yunho offered, still watching Wooyoung with that faint unresolved curiosity, though he'd let his shoulders relax back into the conversation like he'd decided to let the moment sit for now. "It's an option. I do it all the time."
"You're failing most of your theoric classes Yunho."
"I'm passing them every time. Barely. On vibe. But I still pass them."
Wooyoung let the familiar rhythm of it wash over him, the bickering, the easy overlapping voices and felt some of the tension he hadn't quite noticed carrying in his shoulders start to loosen.
This was normal. This was fine. Nobody was looking at him like he'd changed overnight, even if something clearly had. Yeosang was already halfway into a rant about assigned reading loads and Yunho had pulled out his phone to show San something, and the moment from a minute ago had folded itself back into the ordinary texture of a Friday afternoon like it had never quite been strange to begin with.
He felt San's arm shift behind him, not moving away, just resettling, thumb finding the curve of his side and tracing something absent and unhurried there. It wasn't a big gesture. Nobody but Wooyoung would have noticed it at all, and even he might not have if he weren't so acutely, embarrassingly aware of every place they were touching lately. But it grounded him in a different way than the cold stone did. Steadier. Warmer.
"You're quiet," San murmured, low enough that it didn't carry past the two of them, angled just for him under the cover of Yeosang's continued complaining. "You good?"
Wooyoung tipped his head back to look up at him properly this time, taking in the actual face instead of the silhouette. San looked easy, unbothered on the surface, but there was a thread of real attention underneath it, the same quality that had filled the notebook with careful and deliberate handwriting. Always checking. Always making sure the door was open before he assumed anyone wanted to walk through it.
"I'm good," Wooyoung said, and meant it, surprised by how simply true it felt to say. "Just thinking about tomorrow."
Something flickered across San's face, quick and unguarded before he smoothed it back into easy warmth. "Good thinking or nervous thinking?"
"Can it be both?"
"It's allowed to be both." San's hand found his again, brief and grounding, thumb brushing once over his knuckles before letting go, casual enough that neither Yeosang nor Yunho so much as glanced over. "We don't have to do anything you're not ready for. You know that, right? Even tomorrow. Even if we've planned it. If you wake up and it feels like too much—"
"San." Wooyoung cut him off, gentle. "I know. I read the notebook, remember? You wrote an entire clause about this."
"I wrote several clauses about this."
"You did. It was very thorough. Slightly excessive, but thorough."
"There's no such thing as excessive when it comes to you," San said so plainly, so without any self-consciousness about saying it out loud in the middle of a crowded quiet, that Wooyoung felt his ears go hot despite himself. He ducked his head against San's shoulder to hide it, which only made San laugh, quiet and pleased, the sound rumbling faintly under Wooyoung's cheek.
"Oh my god," Yeosang said, breaking off mid-sentence to stare at them both with open, delighted disgust. "You're doing it again."
"Doing what," San said, entirely too innocent.
"That thing. The soft thing. With the face." Yeosang gestured vaguely at both of them. "Yunho, back me up."
"I'm not getting involved," Yunho said, though the corner of his mouth was twitching. "I already got yelled at once today."
"You did not get yelled at, you got a look."
"It was a very pointed look."
Wooyoung straightened up enough to glare at both of them without any real heat behind it and the conversation dissolved again into overlapping bickering, easy and familiar. He let himself sink back into it, let San's arm stay where it was, let the low hum of anticipation about tomorrow settle into something closer to steadiness than nerves.
The sun had shifted lower by the time Yeosang finally packed his textbook away in defeat, declaring the reading a problem for future-Yeosang, and Yunho stood to stretch with an exaggerated groan about his back. The four of them gathered their things in the unhurried way that came from having nowhere urgent to be, voices overlapping about dinner plans, whether the dining hall was doing anything decent tonight, whether it was worth the walk into town instead.
San held a hand out to pull Wooyoung up from the stone tier and didn't let go right away once he was standing. He held on a beat longer than strictly necessary, close enough that Wooyoung could feel the warmth radiating off him even through the thin cotton of his shirt.
"Tomorrow," San said quietly just for him while Yeosang and Yunho argued a few steps ahead about which dining hall had better fries. Not a question this time. Just the shape of the word settling between them, solid and certain.
"Tomorrow," Wooyoung agreed and felt that same flutter again. Sharp and dizzying and entirely, finally, unafraid.